记得

_______________________________

我到现在还记得她。

不知道，她心里还有没有我。

每次在很紧要的关头，她都会杀出来救我。

拉我一把，带我回来。

很深的、很遥不可及的，还有她。



回来了，记得来找我。

heat in my body

4 days left.

SPM is coming.

i'm sick now.

sigh.

wish me could recover soon.

i'm suffering fever and diarrhea.

i'm hot and

i'm weak.

please go, the bacteria and virus in my body!

to my dears

it's just a joke, my dears.

human has heart.

the heart has feeling.

heart can differentiate which is joke and which is not.

it breaks easily without sign.

it's just

a shout out of my mind

what the heck! bull shit!

I have never tried to be moody more than 2 days,
but now, how many days did i become moody?

It's the 5th day!
5th day!

I wish i could shout bravely.
I wish my tears doesn't roll down from my cheek easily.

But, everything is not under control.
Shit!

It should be a wonderful day but the luck seem doesn't want to follow my way.
Then, everything comes so fast and i .......

...... i couldn't response so fast.
It happened in just second.

the sound " pak " are followed by " wauuuuu "
and i stood still.

speechless. brainless. mindless. breathless.
i tried to comfort myself it's ok.

but, it doesn't seem ok.
bankrupt. moody.

now, the end is coming.
i want my mood back!

闷

心情很闷。
怎么办？

想办法。
无语。

停留。
闷。

想，
法子。

转动。
是坦白。

可以吗？
死路一条。

利用文字吧！
坦白是唯一的。

馊了

最近，我有很多感触，可是我写不出来。



SPM 正向我招招手，我很矛盾、不知所措。



眼睁睁看大家都很努力地，我却什么都做不到，是做不到，不是我不想做。



呆呆的，可能我突然觉得到底我以后要做什么，现在我该做什么。



最近很愚蠢的一直在想



who I am?



what I am?



what am I going to do?



我知道这很笨，可是，我就是很迷惘。



从小学开始，爸妈妈告诉我们要好好读书，于是我们就很努力读书。



慢慢的就要面对UPSR，我们不会迷惘，因为我们知道 UPSR 之后就要上中学。



上了中学后，要考 PMR，我们也知道接下来的路怎么走，于是我们就很努力的读书，拼了命都要读进 science stream。



进了 science stream，压力大到暴，每次考试都会有几科不及格，但是，至少我们不会迷惘。



到现在，我开始想，到底我这么做是为了什么。



好吧，之前我想说把试考好就算了，at least you try your best。



可是，



学校的气氛很不对，已经失去了那种很佳的气氛。



每个人都好像怪怪的。



我肯定我拿成绩的时候铁定会后悔。



可是，我就是失去了对读书的热诚。



怎么读也找不回我以前的那一股牛劲，只能说，它已经 馊 了。



很多东西都会变馊，



感情会馊、食物会馊、热诚会馊。



我看过一对男女，他们从朋友变成了情人，分手后，对方还是很喜欢彼此，可是，这段感情已经馊了，不能挽回了。



东西馊了，还可以挽回吗？



我可以再找到馊掉热诚吗？



明天会是怎样？



那，我是什么？

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he said he was

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